Calm

 

Calm

 

Existence

 

 

           When I try to go sleep, I have so many things to think of.

I need to get it out from my head right away, so I get up and reach to my computer to write.

But when I start to get it out, I face the problems.

Things are too mixed up to start with.

These are all entangled like bushes.

I need to organize what to be come out from my head, first.

I might have to use writing journals to figure it out one by one.

I realize that I was the one who grasps at too much at the same time and loses all.

I need to write down what is my priory thing to solve.

I have school assignments to finish and I need to think of setting my personal and career goals for short terms and long terms.

But my personal obstacles are blocking to pursue all those things to do.

Why?

Because my mind is not settled down in peace which I always tried to be.

Because I don’t know how to get rid of these obstacles that bothers me all the time.

From now on, I will analyze deep inside of me in order to solve the problems and eliminate the obstacles.

I will write down frankly what I need to be changed for the best.

If I know me better, I can perform better.

If I know what are my problems, I can find the way to solve.

Hope to find the way through writing journals like this.

Now I can go back to sleep to save my energy for tomorrow.

 

 

 

 

February 23, 2004

S. Rhee

[English AX 6680]